Not a good day.

So here we are with the news...
1) my Super500 decided to shut down 3 days ago in front of the gym. It did not start up again. The day after I had to call the breakdown van to take the car to the garage and see what's wrong. Since my insurance is the basic one it does not cover the breakdown van, nor any kind of repair and the car is some 13 years old so there's no guarantee.
The garage called me today. The guy was very gentle and was talking to me like if he had to tell me about the death of a dear person. He kindly told me that he had bad news to give me... that only to estimate the demage it will cost me around 130,00€ and then, he may find something really serious that will cost (at the very best of my luck) some more 150,00€.
Just to let you know, 3 weeks ago I spent €234,00 to test it for the pollution smokes.
So, if I stop now I will have to pay the breakdown van (€100,00) plus a partial estimate the guy has already done and the dismiss of the car... and then I'll be without a car and won't be able to go shopping for food or such. I'm good with my bike...I go everywhere I can with it but cannot load it with too much things. So I talked to Andrea and to my mom and sound like I'm the only one who doesn't want to spend money for the repairing... so I told the guy to go ahead with the estimate and then we'll see.

2) Back into the loosing-job-loop. The company I work for just lost the assistance to Alitalia flights: 8 daily flights. And everybody is already talking of excess of workers and about laying off employees... and guess who's gonna be the first? Still those with seasonal short-term contracts.
That makes me feel horrible.
I know some of you think that this is not the right job for me...that I need a more creative one but... I'll tell you: I really love this job. There's that mix of human exchange and challenge and problem solving and coolness and stamina and teamwork that makes me really feel good!
So now I work with every flights like if it is the last one... the ramp agent duties and the push back operation (which is one of the cool think of my job) all performed at my best... but with this guillotine is always over my head.

3) Monocolo is not doing great. He has diarrea and his coat is dry and he's not active like always. We dewormed him 2 times this year and I don't understand where he can get all those worms (if it is that....). So, I called the vet and she won't be here before monday. Let's hope for the best.

But there's a good news:

• Pre-wedding Church course! Today is the second last class and I'm sorry it will finish. The priest that teaches those lesson is fantastic and I'm so happy to get married that I'm really looking forward the celebration of that day. I see things with a different perspective... always more challenging. This thing makes me feel like all the above written 'bad'-news are nothing really important because I can do it, whatever it happens.

Lesson for me: keep smiling as much as I can. There's a solution for everything and God will show me some way....some time... hopefully soon... and money will fall from the sky... :-)