Uffa!

Ok, ok, ok... everything will turn out fine... always... at least hope is the last to die... or should be.
The car is definitively dead! Something in the engine is totally broken and can be repaired only by buying a new engine... which is crazy because it will cost me more than double the price of the car.
So once again I have to deal with the dependence on the modern comfort that should let us more free. At least I hope my spirit will be moulded so to be wiser after all.
I actually was hoping to use the car until october when I'll find out more about the job, so that if I will have a permanent contract then I could think about buying a new small car but if I won't have the contract or will be jobless again I won't be able to buy the car and maybe won't need it.
So here I am again with projects... but I think God is insisting on me so that I need to ultimately give my burdens to Him, and need to let go of desires, and something beautiful will happen.
So...back on the bike ride... but I also let you imagine the hot and humidity here in those days and how tiring it is to simply ride a couple of kilometers... but I'll do it, I'm strong and healthy and need to make some more sacrifices.

So next.... Job: from july first the company will transform my contract from part-time (25hours per week) to full time (40hours) that means extra money!!!!! And this is good. Of course since we are very few employees compared to the work we have to do, it's gonna be an hell throughout the all summer, but in this case money will win.

About Monocolo: looks like he's doing better, he has no diarrhea even if his coat it's not at the best. He'll come to Rome with us next thursday.

What else? Ah Arianna's wedding on july 1st. I'll be the witness at her ceremony so do you think I found a dress for the occasion? No of course! I'm pooped! I went around and I don't like the fashion of the moment + it looks like all women are skinny (only very small sizes) and breastless not to mention the prices.... so I don't know what to wear...+ I have this 'working tan' which looks like I wear a t-shirt also without it:-) I'm a little desperate.

If this is not enough, I still have to finish a lot of things related to my wedding...
But the good news is that the priest who taught us the pre-wedding course accepted to celebrate our wedding and I know for sure this will be an added blessing. He is fun and simply and this is what we like.
This whole wedding experience and expecially the spiritual one is really thrilling me. Even if Andrea and I are already living together and know each other pretty well (as well as it is possible to 'know' your dear ones) and most of the people keep telling us that it won't change a lot... well, I think it will change a lot. The commitments we are going to promise are big and they really involve each other will and love. I am happy and proud and enthusiastic for what we are going to do!

Not a good day.

So here we are with the news...
1) my Super500 decided to shut down 3 days ago in front of the gym. It did not start up again. The day after I had to call the breakdown van to take the car to the garage and see what's wrong. Since my insurance is the basic one it does not cover the breakdown van, nor any kind of repair and the car is some 13 years old so there's no guarantee.
The garage called me today. The guy was very gentle and was talking to me like if he had to tell me about the death of a dear person. He kindly told me that he had bad news to give me... that only to estimate the demage it will cost me around 130,00€ and then, he may find something really serious that will cost (at the very best of my luck) some more 150,00€.
Just to let you know, 3 weeks ago I spent €234,00 to test it for the pollution smokes.
So, if I stop now I will have to pay the breakdown van (€100,00) plus a partial estimate the guy has already done and the dismiss of the car... and then I'll be without a car and won't be able to go shopping for food or such. I'm good with my bike...I go everywhere I can with it but cannot load it with too much things. So I talked to Andrea and to my mom and sound like I'm the only one who doesn't want to spend money for the repairing... so I told the guy to go ahead with the estimate and then we'll see.

2) Back into the loosing-job-loop. The company I work for just lost the assistance to Alitalia flights: 8 daily flights. And everybody is already talking of excess of workers and about laying off employees... and guess who's gonna be the first? Still those with seasonal short-term contracts.
That makes me feel horrible.
I know some of you think that this is not the right job for me...that I need a more creative one but... I'll tell you: I really love this job. There's that mix of human exchange and challenge and problem solving and coolness and stamina and teamwork that makes me really feel good!
So now I work with every flights like if it is the last one... the ramp agent duties and the push back operation (which is one of the cool think of my job) all performed at my best... but with this guillotine is always over my head.

3) Monocolo is not doing great. He has diarrea and his coat is dry and he's not active like always. We dewormed him 2 times this year and I don't understand where he can get all those worms (if it is that....). So, I called the vet and she won't be here before monday. Let's hope for the best.

But there's a good news:

• Pre-wedding Church course! Today is the second last class and I'm sorry it will finish. The priest that teaches those lesson is fantastic and I'm so happy to get married that I'm really looking forward the celebration of that day. I see things with a different perspective... always more challenging. This thing makes me feel like all the above written 'bad'-news are nothing really important because I can do it, whatever it happens.

Lesson for me: keep smiling as much as I can. There's a solution for everything and God will show me some way....some time... hopefully soon... and money will fall from the sky... :-)