Febbre!

Fever! Last night my temperature raised enough to make me realize I'm sick! My throat is doing a little better but now I've got a strong cold with this special low voice that should be somehow sexy but the 'babba bia' (meaning mamma mia) pronunciation doesn't help at all.
The good thing is that today I did not go to the stinky job-place and so tomorrow!
The bad thing is that tomorrow I have to pack so many things... and prepare everything for the trip... need to arrange things for Monocolo and be in the mood for Christmas. Need to pick my cell phone from the technical assistance since it suddenly shut down last week. I've never wanted to own a cell phone but from the time I have it I feel lost without. I've got notes and numbers and the memorandum 'book' and the stored sms. So I'm happy that is repaired for only 30€! In those days I used what we call 'scarface' cell phone which misses a couple of keys and its display is partially scratched... moreover has different keys for symbols and spaces and stuff... so I was hell to write a text message!
Cell apart. Tomorrow we'll leave when Andrea will be back home from work (I'm sure not before 6pm) and this means that we'll probably be stucked in the Autostrada for hours before getting to Rome.
Today I had a Skype-chat with Arianna about the party for the New Year's Eve. Doesn't seem to understand my point of view about Claudia, the past and the things that changes... I feel better because I let out my feelings... but I'm not positive the attitudes will change!
I spent the rest of the day on the internet! Surfing around.. loosing the sense of time and watching my Monocat sleeping and snoring under the blanket. I love him when sleeps like this... it's so peaceful!

Angelo

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People-Persons-Human Beings... what a beautiful creation. All similar in shapes and forms but all different. What a beautiful world we do live in! The bus driver that smashes the door right in front of my face, looking at me with a grin or the girl that smiles at me and asks where I got the hair pin from. The guy that stinks like nothing else in the world and the little boy that is visibly happy due to the music in his headphones. The friend that breaks your heart and the one that heals it. The happy and the sad, the worried and the vain... there's something of somebody in everybody and yet so many combinations of everything end up with some sort of perfect mix. No matter if you are good or bad, beautiful or hugly... each one of us has some specialty.
Today I had the chance to share not more than 1 hour and a half with Ester, an ex-airport-collegue who lives now in Swiss to join a project of Youth for Christ .We did not had a lot of time to talk, we barely explained what's happening, mostly because I have been in a monologue due to my unemployment situation but... there have been connections. There has been a 'sharing' something... and this Something it's Important because it heals the wounded hearts and reminds me that living following our own ideals and beliefs should make us proud of who we choose to be and of what we choose to do.
Need to keep it in mind! Thanks Ester!

Back home: same day... different world!

Back home... still feverish and big swollen eyes but Christmas lights are on... home is warm and dinner's ready... I really have a lot of LOVE around me!

I WANT MY JOB BACK!

Bad day! Went to work at the stinky data entry thing! It's horrible... I feel stupid because I still don't know how to use the programme, and when I look around me for help I can't find it...because the help I need is not in that room. I got out of there and had to rush for the bus... Once on the crowded bus I really wanted to cry! I had to fight against my tears..didn't want to let them fall down: they won! I drove my car home where the vets were already waiting for me. They visited Monocolo and said that his only 'working' eye will not be the 'working' one anymore...the good eye is loosing his clearness, so that he may not be a Monocolo anymore... (Monocolo in italian means 'with one eye only'!)... when the veterinaries left home I just wanted to cry soooo badly... and I did.
I want my job back... I want to be a ramp agent.. I want to work in the open air, breath the polluting fuel, push-back those aircrafts and let those giants leave the earth. .... and at the same time, I know it's silly to act like this and I understand it... but I can't think about anything else today.
Gotta go to buy medicines for Monocolo and then to work to the swimming pool...
I'm sick... got the fever.
This is a bad day!

A walk in the city

Had a walk in the city yesterday...we say 'in centro', with two different friends... In the morning I met Rita and we had breakfast in the cafeteria of the Sala Borsa: the public library that we both love. Lot of chats.. and positive moods. I like Bologna very much... it's not too 'fast' and u can always get some time for u at 'your time'. We talked about her new job and about my stinky job and about some airport-ex-collegues-gossip.
At lunch I met Julie and we ate together 'lots of fiber' in a comfortable place. Then we had a walk to see the things in the shops:-) Both are struggling with a disastrous economical crisis but u know what? we are both very lucky anyway.
Back home I cooked something for the dinner at Patty's home... I cooked stuffed-mushrooms and a salted cake with artichokes... we ate like pigs and had a very good time together... I really think I had a good day! Good vibes are around me:-)

1st day of work!!

I don't understand... I don't understand how can people smell so bad... I really can't understand it! I do understand that some people are not so keen in having too many showers (that is good: u can save water).. or I do know that sometimes teenagers don't have a great relationship with the washing water... but it's only a period, soon they won't be teenagers anymore. I know there are some other whose skin is more perspirant and others that for religious issues or for some special beliefs don't use deodorants... others who simply don't have access to soaps and shampoo... but... how it is possible for a guy on his past 20ies to smell so bad? His breath is horrible for the smoke and the not-washing-his-teeth thing and the rest is unbelievably stinking... so now... today it was my first day at this stupid-silly-low-paid-data-entry-job... and this guy, a sort of supervisor explained me everything and showed me how to control the bills and other things.. that means that his closiness was too close and that I was almost going to throw up right on the desk I was working! Moreover... if I think that I will spend there a lot of hours in the next days, it simply gross me out... bleaaaahhhhh
So my friend...the lessons for today is... never underestimate the power of a bad smell:-)
Take care of the planet, don't misuse water but please, keep the bad smell under control!!!
As for the rest I won't tell you how I felt after 8 hours of a new computer program... right in front of the screen!!!

Good Mood

...I'm in a good mood! Yes, you're reading it right:I'm in a good mood!
It's almost unbelievable.. but I feel good.
Everyday more I'm getting signs of the greatness of our Savior... and now I think it's time to make those signs fruitful..
A friend is pregnant and is now a unmarried-mother, and even if this baby was not planned, she's doing all her best to give him/her a 'perfect' life... it's going to be difficult but... she will sort things out!
The unionist said that the excess employees won't be laid at home...so that now 3 of my 'Spice-Girl friend' won't became jobless as the other 2 (Patty and I)... and that means that we still have a little chance to support each other.
Another friend found the perfect job... the salary is not enough for her needs but it's a part-time job and she's optimistic she'll find some other job to improve the salary... and she'll be happy with it.
Another friend simply thanked me.
As Kathy says I don't have to plan things and need to give my burdens to God, and his will will be done... and.. as my friend Jenny says, the more positive I think the better it will be. Of course there are days in which I don't feel right but today I feel good... and the more good I feel the better it is:-)

My B-day....33rd

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Spent the morning at the employment office to apply for the unemployment benefit. I had to wait for almost an hour to produce a document where I had to say that I'm jobless (silly:-). In the meantime I gave a look to the job offers... the first one was:'Assistant to the Morgue room'. So now... nothing to object to the Morgue room assistant but of course it's not really what I'm looking for:-(
When we came out of this place the mood was not great... being there with all the other 'desperate' jobless and looking at a uncertain future is a little scary but... it was my b-day and nothing had to ruin it.
Andrea and I had lunch in an hip bar (you don't ate enough and pay too much)but at least was a vey nice place... then we went to IKEA (for a cappuccino) and at night we went to Patty's for dinner... it has been a sort of surprise dinner but most of the people that had to be there did not showed off: Fabiola was stucked in Bilbao... her flight was 5 hours delayed and Betta had another problem... Andrea A. was sick.. so at the end there was Patty, Matteo, Silvia, Antonio and Andrea and I... everything was perfect and the cake was great!