Cosa Vuoi Che Sia

Gli occhi fanno quel che possono
niente meno e niente più
tutto quello che non vedono
è perché non vuoi vederlo tu

cosa vuoi che sia

passa tutto quanto
solo un po' di tempo e ci riderai su
cosa vuoi che sia
ci sei solo dentro
pagati il tuo conto e pensaci tu

è la vita in cui abiti
niente meno e niente più
sembra un posto in cui si scivola
ma queste cose le sai meglio tu

cosa vuoi che sia
passa tutto quanto
solo un po' di tempo e ci riderai su
cosa vuoi che sia
ci sei solo dentro
pagati il tuo conto e pensaci tu

chi ama meno è meno fragile

tutti dicono così
ma gli occhi fanno quel che devono
solo tu puoi non accorgerti

e il mondo che ti dice "tu pensa alla salute"
e c'è chi pensa a quello
a cui non pensi tu

e il mondo che ti dice
"tu pensa alla salute"
e c'è chi pensa a quello
a cui non pensi tu

cosa vuoi che sia
passa tutto quanto
solo un po' di tempo e ci riderai su

cosa vuoi che sia
ci sei solo dentro
pagati il tuo conto e pensaci tu

e il mondo che ti dice "tu pensa alla salute"

e il mondo che ti dice "tu pensa alla salute"

Ligabue Cosa vuoi che sia - Nome e Cognome

There's magic in the air....

There's magic in the air....
Originally uploaded by margiana.

It's like blowing wishes in the air. It is such a magical and 'dreamable' thing. Andrea and I one night got out in the garden and started playing with the soap bubble and finished to follow them floating around with childish eyes. That is why I love him so much. He has childish eyes!

This morning I feel gloomy. I woke up and the sky is white. No more fog but ready for snow. The hyacints in the garden are almost blooming and all the bulbs have already their green juicy leaves out of the ground. It's getting colder and winter days are awaited and I am not ready for that after this spring-months. It's just like the seasons are exchanging time... summer-autumn-spring-winter.
I slept until late and then had my breakfast with Elisa playing on the stereo.

One of my dear friend is living her hell out since on Monday she's gonna have a biopsy. Her last smear test had some abnormal results and even if I feel everything is going allright, I can't stop thinking about what she is feeling now. I wish I had the power to clean some of her thoughts off.
Lots of memories of a similar things happened in the past crowd my head. It's not a nice feeling.
The only power I have is the power of prayers and this is what I'm doing. So those bubbles are now lots of prayers send to God...all for her in those days.
If any of you want to join me in praying for her I'll be grateful.
Thanks.

New haircuts

New haircuts
Originally uploaded by margiana.

Today was my day off and Rita and Simona asked me to go out for lunch with them. So we had a walk in the city and then ate at Pane Vino e San Daniele: delicious! We also had a bottle of Schioppettino, a red wine of Friuli. After that we needed a coffe and tooke them to Terzi, my really favourite place to sip a coffe. At that point time to greet but... there's an hair stylist right in front of Terzi (Andrea goes there for his haircut) and I felt I had to go. So I told the girls and instead of saying goodbye they joined me in. But it did not finished here. Rita and Simona cut their hair too. Simona who had long hair decided to cut them short. Now she's a lot more cool. I really love short hair!

Fog.

Winters in Bologna are usually cold and foggy. This winter is not cold at all, yesterday we had 8°C and it is wierd. But thick fog invades the scenery.
There's no dawn, nor sunset... no moon and stars, only thick grey fog.
Of all the things I got used to living in this region, the fog is something I can't get along with.
It alters my perceptions: muffled sounds, scary shadows, musty smells.
Yes, the smells bothers me as much as the inability to see things clear. I get out around 5am and I don't even worry for what is in front of my bycicle wheels, there's no way I can see anything... the lights of the street lamp, usually very strong, are useless. And the smell... I try to filter it with my scarf that smells of my favourite parfume but still it gets in my nostrils like a subtle ghost and gets in my lungs where I imagine it condensing in polluted water and drowning me.
I bring this imagine it with me the whole day and the mission is try to colour and parfume what remains out of the fog. It's not an easy task and since my physical activities suffer this deprivation of liberty, everything is harder.
Sometimes I feel lost in the fog. I lose every point of reference, I don't know where is north or south or my home or my bike. At work it's destabilizing. I wait for the aircraft to land parked in my place at the stand, than I hear the sound of it, a sound amplified (this time) but can't recognize the type of aircraft (usually I do...I know when there's an MD80. a 737 or an A320 or a small ATR landing)....can't see the light of the Follow Me truck until it's some 10 meters from me... and still don't see the aircraft and then, all of a sudden it appears and can see the big nose of it and it is extremely close!
That makes me think of the sailors and the pirates or of the merchants in the sea. They were brave! Lost in the sea.

Well, it's 3 days my head is aching me terribly. I feel in a ball of glass, can't bear light, nor sounds.
I work, all dressed up from head to toe with double sweaters, special jacket (the only coloured thing), hat, gloves but the head beats every heartbeat.
It's the fog-ghost that doesn't want me to colour the landscape and paints my thoughts of grey and shades of dark.

I shouldn't complain because at least it's not terribly cold but I feel paralyzed by the lack of mobility, the narrow-sight and the colourless landscape.

I need some wind blowing.

Update!

First of all.... HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Sorry for the lack of entries but had to do a lot of things lately and tried to get over (with no success) to my addiction to the computer.
I left you during the trip to Wien to visit Kathy and her children now boys! We had fun iceskating and eating the original and great tasting sacher torte.
It was really cold compared to the mild temperature of this year december but it was really Christmasty!!! Lots of Christkindlmarket and winter smells! We loved to spend some time with this wonderful family and at the same time we had the chance to enjoy a short-Christmas-vacation. It has been recharging.
After that.... Christmas. We flew to Rome (I found a supersaver fare to fly to Rome) on the 24th we left Bologna at 7.30pm and at 8.30 we were already savouring my mom's Christmas Eve's fish dinner...yummy...
The 25th we spent the whole day at my aunt and cousins's home still eating and eating and eating and on the 26th we had a long walk on the Lungomare of Ostia (the strip that runs parallel to the sea), enjoying the sunset.
Back home on the 27th in the morning and starte working right away.
New Year's Eve as always, we invited friends over to eat some more (I don't want to step on a scale because I don't want to faint after reading the numbers)... and thanks to the dishwashingmachine it was all very easy.
So now in the 2007! Lots of resolutions and lots of wishes...
We had the chance to spend a lot of time together in these days Andrea and I (he's in vacation until tomorrow!!!) and we relaxed and enjoyed the city.

Lots of things going on around us, couples who split and romance that fades away... it is so sad to hear all this. I wish our friends and relatives could be happy with their hearts as I think they are...but then they are not and I wonder on the human ability to hide pain and disappointments and to deal with it.

Sometime I think it is so easy to see in the person I love all that I need... and then I tremble of fear to the thought that I may not see it anymore in the future.... how can it be?

My best wishes for you all is a 2007 full of LOVE and HEALTH. The rest will come next.

I wanted to write some more deeper thoughts but find overwhelmed by emotions in those days and can't use the appropriate words.
Get to organize the 'colours' inside of me!